|10:20 pm - Beautiful But Broken chapter 1|
My lips curled into a smile as I walked to the front of the stage. The huge stadium surrounded me, the voices of screaming fans echoing it. I shut my eyes tight for a few seconds, opening them again to check it was real. I was still panting from the last song, my lungs struggling under the pressure but i didn't care, nothing matters when you're up there.
My heart jumped as i heard his voice at the side of the stage, he noticed me looking at him and smiled, raising his eyebrows briefly, it took me a moment to realise where I was again, those beautiful eyes always hit me pretty hard.
I looked back out across the crowd, so many faces and not a single one had anything on my man, not that they'd ever know that he was mine. That thought made me sad for a moment so I swallowed and tried to regain my confidence, i almost laughed at the irony as i said
'This next song is called a beautiful lie'
I walked off stage angrier than normal, the screams of fans like white noise behind me, he was following me back to the dressing room, he could always tell when i was upset which, whilst normally a comfort, irritated the shit out of me right now. I stormed into the dressing room, taking off my sweaty shirt and sitting down, looking moodier than i intended to but i just wanted to be left alone, he didn't get the hint.
'What's up?' he asked me in that casual, concerned tone he always used.
'You might as well tell me now, Jared, I'll find out sooner or later, i always do, one way or another...' he stood behind me and put his arms around my waist, his head resting on my shoulder.
It was hard to resist him, he knew my weaknesses but i tried to make it look easy for me to get up, breaking away from him, to go and grab a bottle of water from across the room.
'I'm just tired okay, it's nothing' i cleared my throat and looked away from him but he caught my eye in the mirror that lined the wall and saw more than I'd hoped he would.
'I love you, Jared, I've told you so many times'
'yeah, you've told me, but if you love me so much why don't you tell anyone else, Tomo'
'You know it's complicated'
'I'd tell the whole world if it were easy, i just..'
Tomo broke off as Shannon walked in.
'Good show, wasn't it? Great crowd'
We were both silent in our own thoughts, wishing we could speak honestly to each other, there were so many moments like this.
'What you guys talking about?'
I cleared my throat, 'nothing'.
Current Location: nowhere worth mentioning
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: A thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton